Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Life Comes Full Circle

Someone once told me that there's only a few things certain in life.  We are born and then we die.  Whatever happens in between varies on so many levels.  Life as we call the in-between, depends on how willing you are to expose your truest inner self.  I could talk about purpose, but I'll save that for another time.  Over the past year, I've spent my time breaking down and un-peeling each layer to closely examine myself.  Layers upon layers that have nearly drowned me but I still kept my head above water.  It was time for a change and so I cut off the final anchor and just did it.

I guess I supposedly did it 'right'; whatever that means.  I went to college then got myself a decent job.  I've traveled the world, mingled with millionaires, and recently experienced the craziest party of my life when I married the man of my dreams.  Life is good. I thought we had it all. Until we woke up one day and realized that the juice was not worth the squeeze.

Life is cyclical.  From fashion trends to nature at it's finest, we have a lot to learn from the circle of life.


The college years were some of the funnest, mind-numbing times of my life.  My friends and I lived without a worry in the world all while partying everyday living the good life on Vegas trips and cruises.  Life after college opened up new gates as we were making six digit incomes at such a young age.  Ultimately, we had to pay the price.  Long story short, my partner and I used to work long crazy hours.  It got to a point where our dog would spend more than 16 hours at home by himself that sent him to live at grandpa's house for a bit.  When we did get a break, we went on crazy vacations around the world where it felt like money rained on a lifestyle that lived beyond our means.  Work hard, party hard pretty much sums it up.

It took me a while to realize that the motto of work hard, party hard in life after college just didn't work.  Even if it was just a tried and true formula that led me to graduate with my bachelors cum laude from a state college in four years and passed the boards the first time.  Life after college was even crazier with no limits to burn money (or acquire debt) on anything and everything that our hearts desired (or so we thought).  Definitely was blinded that things were really spiraling out of control as we acquired more things and sacrificed time away from loved ones just to get there.

I've learned that some sacrifices are just not worth it in the end.  I realize what I value and I know what I'm willing to work towards.  If you were to ask me how to find happiness, I think it starts with shedding all the excess and examining your values first so you could build on your foundation.  No I'm not gonna go into sell everything and live with basic needs of food, water, and shelter even if that's all we need.  Don't get me wrong. I am a product of my generation that already tasted the finer things in life, just in moderation.  I'm just not willing to sell my time and soul for the love of money.

I just hope to be smarter based on my experiences.  I have accepted that life is one crazy ride.  The past year has accelerated my learning curve into a trajectory path beyond anything I could foresee.  Once you are stripped, you realize who and what really matters.  Ultimately, I still live with no regrets.  I'm finally comfortable in my own skin.  I'm starting to learn to take care of myself so I can take care of my family.  I finally feel like nothing has ever felt so right and it feels so damn good.  Life is good.

Monday, December 8, 2014

Let My Words Paint a Picture of Me

I am inspired to start writing down every life lesson that I've learned in hopes to one day pass on the messages to my future generation.